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I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear. ~Nelson Mandela

Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts

Friday, December 13, 2013

12/13/13

Hello everyone,

So the doctors called today and they said they want to look at the lump again. I have a ultrasound needle biopsy on the 18th. Which just so happens to be my birthday! Isn't that awesome. It's also the day where I have my two core class finals for school! God, what an awesome time I'm going to have working that out. 

I'm almost done with my first semester of my senior year in high school. I'm extremely stressed to say the least. 

But until next time, bye <3

Thursday, December 12, 2013

12/12/2013

Hello everyone

So a few days ago I found a lump in my right breast. I waited a day or two before I told anyone to see if it might just go away. Yesterday, I told my mum about it and she scheduled an appointment right away. 

Today, we headed there at about 12:30 and finally found the place at about 1:30. Anyway, the lady I saw was really kind and she said it probably isn't anything to worry about but she said I should have an ultrasound of it just to be safe. Luckily the place where we needed to go was free to do it and was in a building right next to the one we were in. 

We walked to the place where we needed to be and got right to business. The woman who did the ultrasound was also really nice which made me feel a little better about the whole thing. The thing that made me nervous was she took a lot of pictures. And also the fact that I could see what I was feeling also made me extremely nervous. When she was done she went to go talk to the radiologist and was gone for about 20 minutes.. which added to the anxiety. She came back and told me I was free to go and that I would get a call from my doctor in a day or two.

I'm so extremely nervous I don't know what to do with myself. I'm sure it's nothing but just the fact that it could possibly something really bad is freaking me out.

Anyway
Till next time <3

Monday, December 9, 2013

Hopeless admiration.

Hello everyone!

So, there's been a thought on my mind for a while now and I just can't seem to figure out the reason. I can not figure out why we, as a general population, are so into people that we cannot and probably will never have the slightest chance with. It's been a thing with me for as long as I can remember. Always having a huge crush on like, a celebrity or whatever. But when you have someone that you can observe on a daily basis and see how they act day to day, you really start to have feelings for them. 

I don't know if this is just my hopeless romantic self or if a lot of people do it. I mean, I don't obsess like some and like and comment on every single instagram photo that said person has (that's just really creepy). But I do look at them. I smile if I see them smiling and maybe like one or two pictures. Yet still this person is on your mind. 

Sadly, all I can really do is sit and watch. Chilling in the background waiting for something that will never happen. *cry cry*
But oh well!

(Most pointless post ever)

Till next time, BYE <3