Random thought.

Hello everyone,

I was just thinking about something while trying to sleep (how it usually goes), and I thought... It's kind of mainstream to have the same thoughts or things that you thought that you only tought, as someone else. Like, I see Facebook pages about things like, seeing what raindrop wins on the way to the bottom... Just things like that. And I find it odd how it's like, cool to tell someone about things that you used to hide away. I'm probably making no sense but...

I mean I see what raindrop will win but I thought only I did that and when I saw there was a page on Facebook with people who did the same thing I thought it was kind of cool. But it's turned into a sort of thing that now you know you're not special and unique as you thought you were. And some people still thinks it's super cool to say things that they only thought they did but find out that other people do/did as well. I don't know... It's like, "cool"... 

Just a random, confusing thought

But till next time, BYE<3

OTD

Hello everyone!!

So I just threw some stuff on and I though it looked really cute so here is my outfit of the day!! :)

(So I promise I'm not that deformed as this jumper makes me look)

XXL Jumper - Great Land (or from my mums closet)

Black leggings - BCG

Grey/green high socks- No clue!

And some Grey converse 

And that was my outfit to go see Desolation of Smaug, which I must say was absolutely amazing!!!:) (even though it went full Hollywood :(

12/13/13

Hello everyone,

So the doctors called today and they said they want to look at the lump again. I have a ultrasound needle biopsy on the 18th. Which just so happens to be my birthday! Isn't that awesome. It's also the day where I have my two core class finals for school! God, what an awesome time I'm going to have working that out. 

I'm almost done with my first semester of my senior year in high school. I'm extremely stressed to say the least. 

But until next time, bye <3

12/12/2013

Hello everyone

So a few days ago I found a lump in my right breast. I waited a day or two before I told anyone to see if it might just go away. Yesterday, I told my mum about it and she scheduled an appointment right away. 

Today, we headed there at about 12:30 and finally found the place at about 1:30. Anyway, the lady I saw was really kind and she said it probably isn't anything to worry about but she said I should have an ultrasound of it just to be safe. Luckily the place where we needed to go was free to do it and was in a building right next to the one we were in. 

We walked to the place where we needed to be and got right to business. The woman who did the ultrasound was also really nice which made me feel a little better about the whole thing. The thing that made me nervous was she took a lot of pictures. And also the fact that I could see what I was feeling also made me extremely nervous. When she was done she went to go talk to the radiologist and was gone for about 20 minutes.. which added to the anxiety. She came back and told me I was free to go and that I would get a call from my doctor in a day or two.

I'm so extremely nervous I don't know what to do with myself. I'm sure it's nothing but just the fact that it could possibly something really bad is freaking me out.

Anyway
Till next time <3

Sick.

Hello everyone!

It is literally the worst thing being sick at school. You constantly feel like your face is going to leak everytime you put you head down. It's horrible! Then you're constantly wiping your nose and trying not to make a scene. You end up rubbing your nose raw.

And then you constantly have the need to cough. Which really sucks because you again, don't want to cause too much ruckus.

I hate being sick in school.

Till next time, BYE! <3

Hopeless admiration.

Hello everyone!

So, there's been a thought on my mind for a while now and I just can't seem to figure out the reason. I can not figure out why we, as a general population, are so into people that we cannot and probably will never have the slightest chance with. It's been a thing with me for as long as I can remember. Always having a huge crush on like, a celebrity or whatever. But when you have someone that you can observe on a daily basis and see how they act day to day, you really start to have feelings for them. 

I don't know if this is just my hopeless romantic self or if a lot of people do it. I mean, I don't obsess like some and like and comment on every single instagram photo that said person has (that's just really creepy). But I do look at them. I smile if I see them smiling and maybe like one or two pictures. Yet still this person is on your mind. 

Sadly, all I can really do is sit and watch. Chilling in the background waiting for something that will never happen. *cry cry*
But oh well!

(Most pointless post ever)

Till next time, BYE <3

Love.

Hello everyone.
So I just saw this post on Tumblr and I thought it was really lovely. So I thought I'd share it.

“One: Buy condoms. Buy them and keep them with you at all times, and use them before you are asked to use them. And use them every time. The peace of mind you allow your partner will free her to be vulnerable with you, and that, my son, is exactly what sex is about. Condoms are sexy. In fact, call buying condoms foreplay. 
(Footnote: If you are too embarrassed to buy condoms, you are not ready to have sex.)

Two: Kissing is not merely foreplay. Spend entire evenings making out on the couch while fully clothed. Believe me, dry-humping rocks.

Three: Sex is not just about friction. It’s about emotion. Stop trying to find her clitoris and find her heart. Because then she’ll help you find her clitoris.

Four: If you really wanna know how to please a woman, ask her how she masturbates. Then do that. A lot. If she claims she doesn’t masturbate, offer to take her shopping for a vibrator so you can both learn the vocabulary of her body together.

Five: Don’t put anything in her butthole you wouldn’t want in your own. 
(Footnote: Try a pinky finger, it’s kinda awesome.)

Six: When you go down on her—and you will go down on her, and if you are my son, you will be amazing at it—tell her how good she tastes. Stop in the middle and kiss her deeply so she knows how good she tastes. Do the same when she goes down on you.

Seven: A simple Google search will yield 1,327 euphemisms for male masturbation, yet only 23 for female masturbation. If guys spent less time jacking off and more time jilling off, this world would be a happier place.

Eight: Everything you need to know about the importance of the clitoris is in the movie Star Wars. You are Luke Skywalker piloting your penis-shaped X-Wing Fighter deep inside her trench. Remember: seventy percent of all Death Stars cannot be blown up through penetration of the trench alone. It must be through focused contact with that little exhaust port at the top of the trench. Otherwise, any explosions you experience will be merely Hollywood special effects.

Nine: Just because you come doesn’t mean she has, so don’t you dare come before her. Focus completely on your partner. Don’t worry about gettin’ yours, you’re a guy. You always get yours. Your job is to make sure she’s gettin’ hers.

Ten: If sex with your partner lasts no longer than this poem, you are not making love. You are masturbating with her body instead of your hand. Shame on you. Go back to step one. You’ve got a lot of learning to do.
Love, Dad.”

—	Big Poppa E., “How To Make Love”

Till next time, BYE <3

Music of the day

Hello everyone :)
So there is this artist whose name is Majestic Casual. They make some of the coolest music. 
The one I've been recently loving is this one. It's called DJ Cam Quartet- Rebirth of Cool

It has a lovely sound and it's fun to dance to (when nobody is looking of course ;) 

But a love most of everything that they have put out. Their at-tag on twitter is @Majesticcasual. I highly recommend you give them a listen :)

Till next time, BYE <3

12/7/2013

Hello everyone :)

I just got back from a fun time with my best friend. We went to a play, The Christmas Carol, that was preformed at a local high school. The play was lovely, but also a lot different that what I'm used to for a high school play. At our school we have a lot different kind of set and lights(Mainly because everyone at my school is a rich perfectionist, but that's ok!) None the less it was a brilliant performance! GOOD JOB SUMMER CREEK THEATRE! :)

On the way home I saw a searchlight. I don't know if it's just me, but whenever I see a searchlight it gives me this really sad, worried feeling. I mean, usually it's just for advertisement if it's on a building, but if it's a light house or a airport or anything like that it kind of freaks me out. I'm not really sure why. I just ask myself questions like, "Is someone lost?" or "Are they searching for a criminal?", "Is there someone out there in a plane/boat that's been lost for a while?"  

I also start thinking of the people who are close with this so called 'lost' person or the so called 'criminal' that the search light is looking for or trying to guide. Is it a ever-waiting lover? Is it the police? It just makes me so sad when I think about it. All of these questions and feeling running thought my head over one simple spinning light. I suppose I've just watched too many movies :)

I hope you all had a lovely day and I'll write to you all later. BYE <3

Inspirational.

        There is a man named Shane Koyczan. He is a spoken words artist and is probably one of the best. A while back, he had a project called To This Day. It is probably the most moving piece of work that I have ever heard. If you enjoy spoken word poetry, then I highly recommend you listen to his work. It is utterly amazing. 

      Another one by him that I'm completely in love with is called More Often Than Sometimes.The ending gets me every single time. 

      If you like this kind of work, listen to him. :)

Song of the day.

Today I've been listening to extremely calm, sad music. I have one set on repeat and I am so in love with it. 

This song is so beautiful! I heard it in just a spoken voice at first and I literally cried. If you love it, let me know :)